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I am a product of the seventies, but I was reborn in Jesus Christ in April of 1996, my journey with the Lord has by no means been a perfect journey, but whose is, but the Lord has led his steadying hand in my life, and because of his presence I can overcome what is thrown my way. I have lived with a disability for much of my life, but that does not slow me down much, I am grateful for what I do have, and praise the Lord for the beauty of God's creations...
I have three books published by Publish America and have several self published on Lulu.com, but my prayer is to someday in the not so distant future find a Christian Publisher for my works...
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With A Little Help (2006)
We can all use a little Help, for Christians we turn to the Lord above, but the Lord uses the people he brings forth in our lives. This collection of articles shows that even Christians sometimes need help, and how even with a society that frowns on anything they deem as religious that is to say Christian we must stand our ground.
9/11 brought this nation together in prayer, even in this great tragedy, (especially in a time of tragedy like 9/11 was ) the Lords hand is evident, and in the unimaginable sadness it was evident that the Lord was there with the nation. Especially with those at ground zero on the planes that went down and in the Pentagon! Prayer vigils were held, andle light memorials, and Gods hand was evident in the tireless work of the heros who risked their life to save others at Ground zero, and yet we still want to talk about taking God out of the pledge, we have no right and even if this law is passed it will not change the fact that we are One Nation Under God! This nation, this world, the universe would not be here if God had not created them. Lets think twice before we try to take God out of our lives, because without him our lives are miserable.
Michelle Renee Kidwell
July.27.02
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Loosing someone you love whether it be from death, from a move or broken bonds is hard.
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Hope Valley (2005)
Hope Valley is an Idylic place until one night when one of their well loved highschool students is shot and paralyzed, and the realization that it can happen even here hit homes...
Anna had a sweet presence about her that made even the most hardened of hearts want to stop and listen to her. She spoke with such conviction that nobody could accuse her of being false. Anna wasn't perfect and she understood that but she was forgiven. She wanted others to have the same eternal security she had. She could rest assured in the fact that when she was called home she would
enter the gates of Paradise.
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" She is in recovery. " He said looking at her Mother, but directing the news to everyone " But the bullet was lodged in her spine. She will probably never walk again unless the Lord should see fit to heal her."
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I Hope You Dance (2005)
Identical twins deal with a sisters battle with cancer, a condition that will change both of their lives...
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In the Name of Justice (2005)
It felt better to let these secrets out, it was like fifteen years of lies and burdens had been lifted. I had been able to cry on Sophia's shoulder and talk to Mama and Daddy. I would feel much better if Anna would clean up her act, we had made progress. I had been able to talk to her, and I wanted so much to be able to stop her, but she had to want to stop, I could try everything in my world to stop her, but without her wanting to, it was no good. I believed Anna was opening up her eyes now, seeing how dangerous being a prostitute was, I can't count the times of telling her I had recovered the bodies of raped and murdered prostitutes, and how afraid I was that it would her one day.
After getting off of work I caught up with Anna and we talked. I told her that we had finally told MAMA and Daddy what had happened and how she had been right about them feeling guilty about it. I should have told them sooner, but as a child when something like rape happens to you, for some reason you believe it's your fault, that you are a bad girl, but the fact is if Sophia and I had said something, this wouldn't have happened to Anna. I knew she thought about it often although she never mentioned it, but I know I felt that way, and I could be fairly certain that Sophia had as well, we were the big sisters, if we had told MAMA and Daddy so long ago, then Anna would probably not be walking the streets, selling her body. The feeling of guilt was beginning to overwhelm me.
I was hoping that talking to Anna would serve two purposes, the most important being that I convince Anna even more that she needed to stop living the life she was, that she deserved better than she was getting. She may not have felt that way at the time, but it was true Anna deserved better, she deserved happiness, and a life, for that matter all three of us deserved happiness, but Anna had been carrying the brunt of the burden for the last fifteen years.
"We should have told Mom long ago, Sophia and I thought we were either protecting them or protecting ourselves, and in reality we were doing neither, we were just burying the truth so deep within ourselves, that I reached my breaking point, and I know Sophia would have eventually reached her breaking point too."
" Mama has been blaming herself all along, that would not have changed Marishka, but you needed to tell Mama, because you needed that release."
I should have told Mama long ago, but I didn't and that couldn't be changed, at least I finally told the truth and a burden had finally been lifted from mine and Sophia's shoulders. Maybe in time we would both stop feeling as if we had to bury ourselves in our work. I knew a part of it was passion for what we were doing, another part was we were trying to keep ourselves busy so we didn't have to think about it, but we were always thinking about it..
Lord why did I feel as if I had to hide this, and in the process hurt those that I love the most? I never asked to be violated, but some sicko did this to me, and to Anna and Sophia they took my innocence away from me, they took my right to be a virgin when I got married away from me the second they raped me, and they did the same to Anna and Sophia.
" You're right Anna. I should have spoken up sooner, I should have said something. I am the oldest I should not have left the burden entirely on you for you to carry."
" Neither you or Sophia were stupid, you were just afraid, afraid of being hurt, afraid that you would get in trouble. Truthfully I was afraid too, I was afraid yet I had to tell someone or I would explode, that was just me though. You did what you thought was right."
" Something like this never really leaves us though, it's always with us Anna."
" I know that Marishka, believe me I know it will always be with us, we will always live with the terror of being raped, but somehow we move on or at least we try to move on."
" Are you telling me that you are finally seeing how wrong what you are doing is? Please tell me you are going to stop this nonsense of prostitution. Every time I go into the police station to go to work I am afraid they are going to tell me they found your body, that you were murdered by some deranged John, you know it happens Anna, I have told you over and over again how many times that has happened."
" Marishka I am trying, that's all I can promise you, I am trying."
" At least that's something."
It was something at least she was trying, before she wouldn't even try, we were all growing older, growing wiser.
Lord thank you for giving me this time with my sister, thank you for letting her at least try to give up prostitution, maybe she's finally coming to realize how dangerous what she is doing is.
" I will try, that's all I can offer now, maybe sometime I can offer more, but try is all I can do now. I have been doing this for a long time, and it's not going to be easy for me just to leave, no matter how wrong I know it is."
I listened to Anna in silence, letting her speak, letting her tell me what she needed to tell me. I hadn't done that often enough, just let Anna speak and listen, I was always trying to tell her what to do and now I knew I needed to listen as well as give out advise, and when Anna had advise I needed to at least listen to that, and if I thought it was helpful then I would take it, and usually on the rare occasions when Anna gave advise her advise was good and I knew it would be wrong of me not to listen to it.
I knew now I needed to listen to both Anna and Sophia more, and I needed to stop trying to help everyone else before I helped myself. I had denied doing that over and over again, to my sisters, but now I realized that was what I was doing, trying to give everyone else answers to their problems, before facing my own problems. It was time I started facing my own problems, maybe it was even time I started talking to someone about them, in fact it was probably time the three of us talked to someone about the rape.
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" Parents should not have to burry their children." Mom said, as if she was thinking the same thing I was.
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Missing at Midnight (2005)
Sarah and Kirsten find out secrets about there families past after Kirsten ends up missing, when she finds her sister Sarah realizes that the fight for there life has only just begun...
I actually felt sorry for this man, because I knew it was our so called Father who left this man up to this. I wondered what he would be like if he had not been around my Father, I imagined him in college, or maybe getting married and having a family, the man we had thought was our Father had ruined yet another man's life, and it made me angry inside, made me want to fight harder and harder until we got out of their.
Lord I need to have the fighting spirit, I need to do what is right and whatever will get us out of here without compromising our beliefs.
The basement fell quiet again after our captor had come in brought us food and left. Kirsten and I were lost in our own thoughts, she was probably remembering as I was life before we were in that basement, a time when we were both happy and free
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A Collection of Memories (2004)
He touched me,
Made me whole,
With nail scarred hands,
And blood dripping from his brow.
He touched me,
Took my life,
Made me complete,
With pierced skin,
Where the nails dug in.
He shined his light,
Restored my sight,
Took away fear,
Set me free,
From the grip of Satan's clutch.
With Nail scarred hands,
He gave his life for me,
Saved me from my sins,
Set me free.
Copyright Michelle R Kidwell
Jan.19.03
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Made me complete,
With Piereced skin,
Where the mails dug in...
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Relfections on Life (2003)
Book Description
The poems in Reflections On Life deal with everything from faith and family, to friendship, as well as the joys and the sorrows in life. Many of the poems come from things I have experienced or those around me have experienced, but not all of them come from personal experience. However, they all deal with life in one way or another. Many of the poems reflect faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, and many reflect on my love for children and for life in general. The poems in this collection were written over a nine-year period, some when I was still in school, so some of the poems reflect the thoughts and feelings of a high school student. Some reflect the baby years in my Christian walk, and many allow the reader to see how important friendship is for me, as well as my faith.
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Michelle's Testimony Info
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Which categories of people did you belonged to before you were saved?
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The Unaware, A Teen
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| Who have been your best examples? |
Jesus
My Nonna
My Mom
Sister Ruth
Jenifer Rothshild
Janet Perez Eckles
Christopher Reeves
Mel
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Marked for Life Crystal Woodman Miller
Lessons in the Light
And Lessons In the Darkness Jenifer Rothschild
Trials of Today, Triumphs for Tomorrow Janet Perez Eckles
The Poetry of Mattie Jt Stephanek
And Helen Steiner Rice
The music of
DC Talk
MercyMe
Auti-Angel
Carrie Underwood
Reba
Amy Grant (My all time favorite)
Jim Croche
Kevin Spencer and Friends
Jillian Ryan
Palomino Danielle Steele
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Janet Perez Eckles
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