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| Jeff's Testimony |
I'm just now comfortable to come out about it because I feel I need to help others. I was recently saved about 8 months ago. Prior to the event that I will eventually explain, I did not know Christ. I was living a horrible life style along with a very sinful one. I was smoking pot everyday with my friends and going down a very horrible path. I managed to make myself think I was happy, but I knew deep down that I wasn't. In fact, I felt something tugging away at me, but I didn't know what it was. I could feel it though, it seemed like something was telling me to "get out of that situation NOW".
I was so lost with myself I decided to overdose on sleeping pills. I'm open to telling you all of this because I know you won't look down on me now because I can reassure everyone of you that I'm a brother in Christ along with yourselves, and have such a strong relationship with him it's something I can only explain to people that have a relationship as well. People who don't know what it's like to know Him is impossible to explain this to, because...they haven't tried to talk to Him, and are too scared to. I can relate to all the non-believers because I was the furthest from anyone. My life used to revolve around drugs - sex, and perverted thoughts every time I looked at someone. I had some pretty messed up thoughts too that I really don't want to get into (of course, I didn't think they were messed up at the time - I didn't know any better).
My mother was always a believer in Christ. I never used to understand it. I never felt Him like she did. I even used to think to myself, "why do these religious nuts keep capitalizing "Him" for???" That's how lost I was. If that tells you anything about my outlook, I don't know what does! But anyways, I want to let you know one more thing about myself until the "event" happened. I always suffered from SEVERE depression. I never really told anyone about it. My friends never knew about me, I always tried to look like I was just in a bad mood that day when in reality I was so down on myself where I would just sit in my room all day and do NOTHING. When I did hang out with my friends, there was something nudging on my brain with constant depression.
I didn't know what was wrong with me. I had a loving family who was always there for me. I had a great brother who is my best friend (although, lately it's hard because I know he doesn't know God like I do, and he argues with it with me.) I just want to tell him, but with him being a non-believer, it's like telling someone there is a pink unicorn outside covered in rainbows. And trust me, I know how he feels, because I was in the pits of the non-believers.
Alright, to get back to the event I keep talking about. The fateful day came where I couldn't handle my depression anymore. I was so down I went to the store and bought 40 extra strength sleeping pills. I took a little over 30 of them. I was certain I wanted to end my life. I didn't care about anyone, let alone my mother who loved me so much. Now before I want to continue, I want to say one thing - I'm pretty sure the Holy Spirit rests in everyone of us. We are just unaware of His presence before we call out to Him. When I was about 10, ten years before this happened, I accepted Christ as my savior, not really knowing what I was doing because I was so young. When I asked Him as my savior, I think that's when I woke the Holy Spirit up inside of me. And like anything in life, when you accept Christ as Your Savior, you have to really mean it. Christ knows if you are doing it just to do it. What I mean by that is simply one thing - you can't be sarcastic when you ask Him to be Your Savior. He knows.
Back to the day I tried to commit suicide. Before you read anymore, try to put yourself in my shoes to know how what I'm saying is very real. I took the pills in my car, and for some reason (I don't know why I did this) drove back home. If I wanted to die, why did I drive back home? When I went inside, I started to feel it. It felt like getting high (I know some of you probably don't know what that is like, that's a good thing really), but multiply it by a hundred. I couldn't feel ANYTHING. I started to panic because it was really happening. I was going to die. It all of a sudden hit me. I can still live and possibly be happy one day. This depression stuff needs to get out of me. NOW. I started to panic because I felt it was too late for me now. All I knew is that I wasn't supposed to die now. And this made me feel very scared. I went to my mom and told her what I did. She told my dad, who is never really understanding of me - and is a big cause of my depression in the first place. my dad, instead of worrying that I was going to die - instead just got mad at me. I think my mom knocked sense into him pretty quick because the next thing I knew he was driving my mom and I to the hospitable. When I got there, they rushed me into ER. They had to pump my stomach and all I remember was thinking "this can't be it, I need to keep my eyes open no matter what I do." I forced my eyes open as I was going. Something was telling me hang in there - and I didn't know what it was at the time.
I know now. As I was laying in my ER bed, a doctor came in and told me to say my prayers because there is a good chance I was going to pass away. I told him how much I took and he said to keep praying. So I did. They pumped my stomach again. It hurt so bad. The put a tube the size of one of those tubes that go in a fish tank to clean the water out straight down my throat for over 5 minutes. I gagged and gagged and had to breathe out of my nose and not swallow. It was hell. It was hell. It was hell.
After they stopped, I forced my eyes to stay open once again. My mom came into the room. She was crying and crying. Then is when the moment came. Out of nowhere - I said it. I looked at her and said "Mom, I'm going to see you in heaven one day." I'm getting teary eyed right now even thinking about it because it's hard for me to talk about - even now. At the time, I still admit, I didn't know what made me say it. I didn't even know really what "heaven" was. I just wanted to go there because it had to be better than where I was now.
To make an extremely long story short - I survived the hospitable - and was put in a mental institution for over a week. Please know, I still didn't know the power of God, even after saying that to my mom. All I knew that was I felt different. Sometimes I even think maybe I'm dead right now because I've never felt more happy in my life - and find it hard to watch when people sin like they do - something I never cared about because I didn't Know.
When I got out of the hospitable - the unexplainable at the time started to happen. I kept seeing - and I KNEW I wasn't going crazy - the numbers "33", "333" and even "3333" everywhere. Please know I had no idea who The Lord was yet. All I knew that something was going on. Possibly even something or someone was trying to get my attention. The only person to experience the 333's with me is my girlfriend. But that's only because I pointed them out to her when I saw them. If she only knew how much I saw them, she wouldn't think I'm as crazy as I sound right now! I knew something "out of this world" was going on. I couldn't figure it out. It took me over 6 months prior to my mental hospitable release that led me to the verse in the bible that saved my soul:
"Call to me, and I will answer you. I will tell you great and mysterious things that you do not know." Jeremiah 33:3
Jeremiah 33:3. 333! Could it be such a coincidence that the ONE VERSE in the bible that is considered God's Phone Number - is contacting me? Go ahead, look up the verse in the bible yourself. No. It was no coincidence. I began to pray - a lot. I knew it was God talking to me, and I knew I wasn't going crazy. Sometimes I wish people could understand me more when I say this. I saw the 333's for a reason. I saw the verse in the bible for a reason. It all led to how I am today. A true believer that Jesus Christ died for each one of us for eternal life in heaven.
All I want to say to the non-believers, as my hands are becoming so numb from typing so much, is no matter what your thinking right now - give it a try. There is no coincidence that the Holy Bible is the oldest book in the world. Yes, I know the non-believers are thinking "but what about all the other religions out there?". "There's so many, how do I know THIS is the right one?" If you take time to read of the bible - all these other religions that exist will begin to make sense WHY they exist. The devil is extremely deceiving, and what I mean by that is the devil, Satan Lucifer, knows exactly what he's doing to you. He wants you to have doubt - believe in ANYTHING that doesn't have Jesus Christ's name in it. This is his entire plan to persuade anyone to become close with God - The Father - The Holy Spirit (The Trinity Creation, 333!).
I hope this was something very inspirational to anyone who hasn't asked Jesus Christ - The Holy Spirit to come into their lives. All you simply need to do is pray tonight or whenever, alone, and simply say to yourself with you hands together:
"God, forgive me for my sins - I am a sinner and I know this - I am deeply sorry for all the sinful thoughts I have. I want you, Lord, Jesus Christ, The Holy Spirit to enter into my life and surround me wherever I go. Never forget about me, and be with me always."
Want to talk? Contact me on AOL instant messenger: boxxleman.
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Jeff's Testimony Info
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Which categories of people did you belonged to before you were saved?
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The Unaware, Other
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| Who have been your best examples? |
My mother and random people who have touched my life that don't even know it.
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| List books, music or ministires that have helped your walk |
The Bible, The Left Behind Series.
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| List ministries you are involved with. |
I have a website where you can print out a brochure giving the salvation plan to put up anywhere! Check out my website.
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| List ministry websites. |
www.winasoulforjesus.com
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| Prayer Requests: |
I still have some addictions that I don't want to list here, but please pray for me that I will break them so I can grow in my relationship with Christ.
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| Occupation/Business/School: |
Student @ Central Michigan University
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