By the age of 16 i had went through a divorce with my parents, my mom going to rehab, her moving her boyfriend in and having a new half brother at age 13. I had gone to church on and off during my life but my parents never went so it was really not enforced in my home. I was searching for something to make me whole and i couldnt find it. I was having sexual interactions  just to feel wanted by someone but then to find out they wanted nothing with me and then i would result to drugs, ciggarettes and drinking. I knew it was'nt the right thing to do but i did it anyways . I felt so rejected at one point in my life that i would cut my wrists i didnt want to die i just wanted to hurt myself ... i went through alot of counseling after my parents got divorced and it never seemed to help.I got in trouble for shoplifting at age 15 and got a slap on the wrist well a week later i did it again that time i got arrested.(I never knew why i did it my parents would give me stuff if i asked them) Well i got put on diversion and house arrest and then i decide while i was on diversion to drink with my friend and some older guys she knew we got caught and got picked up by the cops and i got placed on diversion and house arrest agian ( Not something i liked but youwould of thought i did ) I never seemed to learn i just wanted to fit in so bad with my "friends". Well at age 16 i was with some friends my mom and dad were at the point they couldnt handle me and let me do things without checkin if my story was true i went to hookahville (which is suppose to be a concert but it is really a drug festival in disguise) my mom and dad did not know this . I did a few things but i knew when to stop i didnt do hardcore drugs but i still knew it was wrong . Me and my friends met some older guys that were in there early 20s we were 16 . Well i got "date raped" and a about amonth later i stopped hanging around these people i didnt want anything to do with them anymore i realized they werent for me. Then i find out im pregnant ...i thought my life had ended at first i didnt know who the father was for sure and just didnt know what to do . after a few weeks i started getting serious and thinking i can not live this life for my baby. I will have to go to college to support her and at that time i was barely passing any classes . I Ended up fininshing my junior year and my whole senior year with a 3.8 Gpa!!! I started going to church with my family but i still felt so guilty for being a young mom out of wedlock so i slowly stopped going after she was born.I no longer drank or smoked ciggarettes i was going to college for nursing then i met a guy that i thought was awesome we were together for about a year but we both were on two different levels in life and decided to part . I took it very hard my daughter was 2 and i didnt know how to doit on my own. I was living on my own i was no longer in church and i started to smoke again and then i would drink a few times. I had this wonderful lady that babysat my daughter and as i was leaving one day there was a young man standing there outside her home i didnt pay no mind and left i get a phone call asking me for my number and a few short weeks later we are dating and then he asked to live with me i knew it was wrong but i did it anyways i was working at a nursing home at the time and there was this nice lady that had been visiting there alot and my dad was in there for surgery too . well they became good friends and started to date she invited me to church one day and i decided to try it out i felt so welcomed that i started to go regularly then my boyfriend started coming. But right after i started going i became pregnant again . I flunked out of college and was still working. I started going to church alot in the spring of 2005 i became saved and in the summer of 2005 i became baptized. I started helping with Vbs and just loving god and his people!! I started feeling very guilty for living with my boyfriend and being saved. So we started to talk about marriage and we decided we would get married in may of 2007 well one day after a great service at church i said hunny i feel led by the lord to get married in june this was april ! We had a lil bit ofmoney but not much i asked our dear friend for ideas and next thing i know she offered to help with food and decerations and my cousins husband did our pictures my other cousin did our cake i was just flabergasted by how many people helped us then i knew that is what god wanted > he didnt want us to live in sin anymore and gave us the oppurtunity to get it right. Well we married on june 10th 2006 ! It was a rough time after our marriage i know the enemy tried to intervene and he almost won but i didnt let HIM!! I asked my dear pastor for help and he said remember your vows and i thought yeah but look what has happened and said iknow but remember those vows !! BOy am i so glad i did!! We have been apart of our church for almost 4 years now and love it!! We have been through 4 deaths in 2 years , a miscarrigae then the birth of our 3rd daughter 2 months ago!I have met a awesome guy who excepts me and my daugther as his own. God has gotten us through it and is contuining to get us through all of lifes trials and im so glad to show my kids that we wont let things get in the way anymore !! I am not saying that teen pregnancy is a good thing but i do believe if it wasnt for that happening to me I would not be were i am today !! God has blessed me somany times !!! Thank you god!!