after 2 tours in Vietnam, I came home meaner then a snake, right and wrong is twisted in my mind, my concept of it was not clear,this is the short version, as it would take many pages to explain,so after living with a beautiful women for two years,she asked me to marry her, ah that would be a no, and mom could not deal with the demon I had become, she said I am sorry son you have to leave,so my brother drove me to 175 so I could hitch hike, I was heading to Flordia,never waited longer then 10 min for a ride, then a big storm arrived, I ran to get under a bridge, as they guy pulled up, hey need a lift, with gun in hand for protection, I arrived in the car, he said you have no need for protection as Jesus runs my life, OH NO!! another person claiming to know Jesus!  he said where are you heading as I put my gun away, but keep it close as trust is not one of my strongest qualities,I said Flordia, he then began to tell me about Jesus, I told him do not bother telling me about a man who I have never known, like a dog on a bone he continued, oh well the ride is free I thought,after a couple of hours he asked if I was hungry? why does he care I thought? I said yea but my money is tight, he said no problem I will buy, humm what is this guy up to?? gay, gee i will kill him and take the car, my thoughts were moving in the fast lane,at dinner he told me that his father is a pastor at Cumberland College in Williamsburg Kentucky, and that I could stay there for a few days as classes were starting in a couple of weeks, ok skipping a lot to get to the point,I roomed with this guy named woddy wilson, a guy on the golf team, who was like Paul the apostle, oh NO not again,after many weeks of me doing everything to upset him, he still smiled, read the Word 3-5 hours a day, prayed in some language I did not understand, well one night late, about 1:30a.m. a pitcher from the baseball team knocked on the door, woody would you pray for me, I broke my arm, and I am suppose to start tomorrow, I pretended to be asleep,woody prayed, then I heard this crack,they were thanking Jesus for healing him!!! oh no way! he had a broken arm! so he left laughting and skipping and prasing God! oh man, this is to much I thought, I do not believe this! so the next day I went to the game to see if he was going to pitch, he was there!!!! pitching, heck he pitched a 4 hitter! now what is going on??who is this jesus and how does this guy have such a connection? I went back to the dorm room, sat down and began to weep,for no reason!  footsteps were coming, oh no I have not cryed in years!! I cannot let anyone see me like this, so I ran to the mop closet across from my room to hide, layed the bucket face down, as there was no water in it, and weep, so hard my body began to shake, why the heck am I in tears! and then after about 10 min, a voice came behold be strong, for I am he that was dead, and is alive forever more I am that I am, I fell backward against the door,I did not see anything but this bright light that sourrounded the room I was in, I got to my knees and th voice said, I am the Lord your God the one who goes with you, I will never leave you or forsake you,my mind was racing, is this the jesus who woody is talking about, what on earth does Jesus want with me?? later I found this word in Deuteronomy 31:6, I said Lord what do you have to do with me?? and then again I fell backwards, the door opened, there was woody laughing at me, I looked up and told him what had happened, he said I know the Lord told me last night he was going to move on you. now so much to tell but not the space, so I was delievered , and freed, free, most have no idea what freedom really is! it took me 27 years to recieve the Lord,and now I say to all of you,whoever the Son sets free is free indeed! Jesus is my life, fauls I still have, flesh I battle everyday, but Jesus is real! how do I know? because he lives in me.