After I turned 11 I decided life was too much for me. I didn't know there was more to it than pain and suffering, because I never experienced it. To me, life was completely pointless, so I didn't want to be part of it anymore. I tried to kill myself, but something stopped me everytime. It was like some still, small voice was whispering to me, "Don't do it Sophia. You'll go to Hell." As bad as my life was, I was still afraid of Hell. My mother used to read the Bible to me when I was little and we always went to church on Sundays and Wednesdays. That just shows how much suffering is going on in the church, but from going I learned a lot about Heaven and Hell. Until then I always assumed I was going to Heaven. The still small voice made me think otherwise. Now I know the voice was actually God speaking to me.

 

Soon after that, I was in bed, thinking about everything, and I realized how much I needed God. I cried for hours, begging God to save me. After holding in my emotions since preschool, I finally let it all out. The tears kept coming, but they were tears of relief. A huge weight had been lifted off of me. That night, for the first time in my life, I slept in peace. The next morning, the world seemed so different. I was still shy then. It took about a year to completely overcome my shyness. Even now I'm still recovering from all the abuse, but I'm so much better than I was. After I found Jesus I became a new person. I love people and I love life. Shyness is completely gone. I'm even in theatre and I love it. I don't even get stage fright! I have friends! Nobody wanted to be my friend before, and honestly I don't blame them. I'm just glad I'm not that person anymore. People noticed a change in me right away. They said I seemed much happier and lighter. One of my biggest shocks was when people started telling me I was nice. That never happend before, because I really wasn't nice. I overheard my friend's mom telling somebody that I was a sweetheart. Since then many people have said that I'm sweet. It's amazing what God did in me. I went from a bully to a sweet little girl in barely any time at all. :)

 

God gets me through every situation. I talk to Him all day long and he is more than just my Savior. He is really my best friend, and He is my Father. My earthly father may not be doing his job, but my heavenly Father will never fail me. He comforts and strengthens me in those hard times. I love Him. I am so glad I met Him. I talk to Him and He talks to me. It's wonderful. I don't know how I even lived without him. It's hard to believe how much I have changed.  God is using me in so many ways.  He had be doing Kid's church for a while.  One thing that I've learned over the past few months, is that when God asks you to move on from something, He's always going to give back.  He's always going to give you something bigger and better than what you let go of.  I had to leave Kids Zone so that I could move on to bigger things. 

  I really enjoy teaching others the truth and leading them to God.  Many people have told me that they see me as a warrior.  A prophetess told me that I would lead a ministry by the time I was 16. God is so good!  I have prophetic gifts, words of knowledge and... well all the other spiritual gifts. It's so cool. 

Something I want everyone to know, is that we are not supposed to just go to church every week, try to do good and call ourselves Christians!  God meant for the gifts to be used everyday by His children.  Everything that Jesus did we are to do also.  Heal the sick, prophesy, feed the hungry and all the other miracles He preformed.  Yes even raise the dead!  These are meant to be used by us!  Take your place in the Kingdom of Heaven.  You are a child of God and have authority over the things of the world.  That's all I have to say for right now. 

God loves you! :)