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has lost 27 lbs since mid May! Feeling GREAT! 269 hours ago...
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has lost 23 lbs since mid May!!! I feel better than I have felt in a very long time! 4 hours ago...
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has lost 20 lbs in just over 5 weeks now! 4 minutes ago...
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jones is planning to go to south africa plz pray 4 minutes ago...
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| Julia's Testimony |
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The lord has been dealing with me for quite some time to share my story but I just kept putting it off. But as many of you know, when G0d wants you to do something you never really find peace until you step out in faith and do it. So here I it is.
I wasn’t raised in the church. It is just not something my dad really approved of. I went for a few years from the ages of 12 to around 15 but walked away and never looked back. The years passed and I don’t think I ever really thought about God. I met this wonderful man (Shane’s dad) and we were married and I thought life was great.
When I was twenty-six years old, I went through what was probably the worst experience of my life. My husband suddenly died of a brain aneurysm on November 10th 1994. I was heart broken, shattered and devastated.. I started drinking to cover up the pain I was feeling inside but that wasn’t enough so I turned to methamphetamine, which at that time was called crank. I used it then to numb the pain I felt. As long as I was high I didn’t have to feel all those awful feelings I was feeling. I still held down a full time job but was getting high as soon as I got off work into the early morning hours. I would sleep for a couple of hours and then I would get up, get high and go to work again. Although I thought I was still taking good care of my kids, as I look back now I neglected them and pushed them aside more times than I ever wanted to admit to myself.
Things just continued to get progressively worse. I lost my job in December of 2000. I went back to college but needed to be able to stay up late to study so my drug use just got worse. Over the next two years while I was attending school there were many times that I stayed up for days at a time so I could get my school work done, study, and keep up with the house and take care of the kids. I look back know and I was really useless to my children. After being up for several days you don’t think too clearly. By day three or four I could tell I wasn’t functioning like I should and I would make myself go to bed. After a good nights sleep to rejuvenate my body I was back at it again.
I started selling drugs to make money and so that I could get mine (drugs) for free. By this time I was addicted. I thought I could live without it but really I couldn’t. I wanted it and I needed it. I was so miserable in my life right at that point. If I didn’t have any drugs I would get so depressed that I would lay on the couch for days. The only thing that got me up was when my supplier came over and brought me more drugs. What a miserable and pitiful life. My life was now revolving around drugs instead of around what should be the most important thing in my life and that is my children. How did I get here? How could I let it go this far? How could I let something like this control my life? I always thought I was in control but I’m not anymore. How do I quit? How can I get my life back? I don’t know. I don’t have any answers because all I can think about is where and when am I going to get my next high.
I hated me. I hated my life. I was so absolutely miserable and depressed and I had no idea how to change. I couldn’t remember the last time I was happy and laughed and enjoyed life. I looked at myself in the mirror and there was no life. My eyes had no color to them. Even the brown color of my eyes just looked black.I was a dead person in a human living body or it seemed like it anyway and that really scared me but I didn’t know what to do about it. I couldn’t let my children and my family know why I was so miserable. What was I going to do?
Then I got arrested. I was so scared. Thank God Shane was with my parents and Kris was at his dad’s house. I was in jail and I was scared to death. They arrested me for possession of meth. I didn’t have anyone I could call except my parents and I was too afraid to call them.. I sat in jail for three days until I went to court. I bonded out on $400. My mother found out I was in jail. She came and picked me up. While I was there she had papers drawn up to take custody of Shane. I felt so betrayed by her and my dad. I look back now and it was probably for the best but at the time I hated them for taking him.
I went to court. I was appointed a lawyer because I couldn’t afford one. He turned out to be someone who attended to the church I now attend (Harvest Community Church). I was charged with a felony charge of possession of meth, possession of paraphernalia and maintaining a common nuisance. I was sentenced to 1 ½ years with all but 90 days suspended which I done in work release. One and a half years of probation, drug treatment program, AA and NA meetings three times a week and whatever else the probation department thought that I needed. I thought my life was over. But the Lord new what he was doing.
While I was in work release I was introduced to Joyce Meyers and God started tugging at my heart. Then my counselor in the drug treatment program turned out to be a pastor of a church. God is surrounding me with the people I need to be around but I am not ready to accept it yet. It was not long and I knew I had to cry out to God to please help me. Dig me out of this pit I am in. I was so miserable I didn’t know what else to do.
That was over 3 years ago. I surrendered my life and every part of it to God. Do what you want with me but please get me out of this. Seems like such a pitiful prayer. It wasn’t long and I knew I had made the right decision. I felt a peace, happiness and joy wash over me that I had never felt in my entire life. I could feel the transformation slowly taking place. My heart was changing. The way I thought was changing. My priorities were changing. To put it simply, God was changing my entire life little by little. I was in love with God who I credit for literally saving my life. He took my drug addiction from me and gave me so much more. It is so hard to put into words how I feel in my heart about what the Lord has done for me. He gave me peace, joy and happiness. He gave me a desire to learn more about him every day. I hunger for a close spiritual walk with the Lord. I was scared that I wasn’t good enough or that I would fail because I screwed up so many things in my life but he created me in his image so that means that I am good enough. To him I am a beautiful person worth every moment that we spend together in prayer and in his word. He gave me the forgiveness of my friends and family and he taught me how to finally forgive myself. He has put wonderful people in my life that encourage me and stand by me each and every day.
I will continue to give him praise and glorify him for everything he has done in my life and for everything he continues to do. I will serve him for the rest of my days and I hope to be able to help people with addictions. I would like for them to know what God has done for me and to tell them that if they will let him, he will do it for them too. We serve such a wonderful awesome God. I will never cease to praise him.
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Julia's Testimony Info
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Which categories of people did you belonged to before you were saved?
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The Partier
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| Who have been your best examples? |
Joyce Meyer
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| List books, music or ministries that have helped your walk: |
Jeremy Camp
Point of Grace
The McRaes
Chris Tomlin
Michael W Smith
Bible NLT
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| List ministries you are involved with: |
Children Grades 3-6
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Unsaved family & Friends
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| Occupation/Business/School: |
Indiana University Administrative Assistant
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| Business Website: |
www.indiana.edu
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